I’m a mom of four precious little loud crazy people. They range in age from 9 months to 6 years. I spend most of my time grocery shopping and then cooking food for said crazies, laundering their clothing, wiping their bottoms, moderating Nerf sword fights, telling people to put on their shoes and get in the car, picking up, dropping off, fetching water, spelling words, tying shoes, bathing, soothing, pointing, counting, reading, fixing, watching, correcting, disciplining, and on and on forever. I’ve been pregnant for part of every calendar year since 2008. This is my seventh straight year of changing diapers. Pre-babies, I worked for an actor-turned-governator, in an office where stress abounded and people were tough. And still, this full time mom thing is the hardest work I’ve ever tackled. It’s the most humbling, most stressful, most chaotic; least paying, least prestigious, least praised. At the end of the day I’m emotionally and physically fried but more grateful than I have words to express – that this work is mine.
Motherhood has knocked me on my butt more times than I can count – and I’m only 6 years in. I guess in a weird way, I’m grateful for the nudges to lean on God more. Because let’s be real, my natural capacity and caffeine can carry me all the way to like 8:30am on a good day. And then if I’m not leaning on God’s grace, this mama’s getting a little twitchy and, um, short-fused? (“You will eat the burnt toast and you will LIKE IT!”)
Sometimes I look at my babies (usually while they are being precious or sweet, but sometimes when they are sad and pathetic,) and think, “There’s no WAY the God of the universe loves me like how I love these tinies. No WAY!?” And yet He does, somehow. He loves our hot-messed, post partum depressed, Pinterest failure-ridden selves. He is wildly, unabashedly, straight up thinking that we are lovable.
Motherhood has me struck by those two ideas: 1. When I am spent, He is infinite – His capacity is endless; 2. He loves me like I love my babies.
Anyway, that’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. But maybe you were looking for something a little shorter and to the point? I can do that, too:
I enjoy a piping cup of black coffee, delicious food and laughing over board games with friends. I’m a Christian vegetarian who loves word play, Lord of the Rings, Taylor Swift and maybe a little hip-hop music now and then. I love vulnerable conversations and hearing people’s stories.